I was dating a boy, i don't remember if i mentioned him before or not.
but we broke up.
we were dating for a year and a half.
now, i'm dating this girl.
she is beautiful, smart, funny; i love everything about her.
i want to spend the rest of my life with her.
but it's possible that i won't get to see her for another 3 months; she got grounded.
so i'm going to lose at least 20 pounds for her.
i don't know how much i weigh right now, i can't find our scale.
we're redoing our kitchen again.
so nothing is anywhere to be found.
i think i'm going to be fasting, but i don't know the last time i ate.
but i'll figure it out.
anywho. sorry for not posting for a really long time.
anyone who would like to join my fast (at least 24 hours) just comment.
i didn't go to school today, so i'll be checking everything quite often.

not working.
i'm using my cousins computer in colorado.
and it makes me kind of sad.
i miss talking to all of you every day, although i'm sure none of you miss me, as none of you ever comment me.
even if i'm not gonna read it for a while you could still be supportive.
thanks guys.
really.

i'm still fat and it sucks.
hopefully things change soon.
i can't very well fast this weekend because i'm gonna be with family who knows about my starving past so they will watch me and  know that i'm not eating.
but after this weekend, 3 days.
and workouts.
i know this isn't very likely but i'm gonna fckin try so hard.
unless i feel like i'm gonna pass out i will not eat!